Ugh

Havent posted in a long while. Its been a very stressful time. I just dont know some days. I have come to the conclusion that good things dont happen to good people. Well either that or Im just not a good person. I dont know. Maybe I was just meant for something that I dont understand. I dont know what GOD has in store for me, only he does and I just wish he would tell me soon. Im not sure how many more bad things I can take.

Main issue is that stress is killing me. I have become such a negative and angry person lately. I have a hard time being optimistic. I wish I could go back to it but Adam and I have been shit on soo badly lately that its just hard to. He still cant find a job and unemployment still doesnt pay the bills. He has been looking and looking but just cant find anything. Michigan's economy sucks and Im not convinced he is going to find anything. But all we can do it well kinda hope. Then to add to it he hurt his knee twice in the last 3 weeks. Was working on the trunk in the car (something wrong with the lock) and the wind took the trunk right down on his knee. So then this week he feel down the stairs when he tripped on one of Dylan's toys. So needless to say his knee is super bad and no insurance to be able to go to the hospital.

Lets see I went to Cub Scout camp the 5-8th and then his dad came on the 10th so I havent spent time with him since the 2nd which isnt helping either. We talk everyday all the time but its not the same as being able to just chill out and watch a movie. I think that adds to the stress. No relaxing to get rid of it. His dad goes home on Sunday morning though so soon we will be able to hang out. I miss lil Dylan too. He can always make me smile.

Saturday is the family reunion and I am going to go. I havent seen my grandpa since last years family reunion but I had Aunt Sandy check to make sure it was ok with him. She says he told her I am always welcome. I just dont get that feeling from him. I cant decide if I want to have a talk with him on Saturday and just let him know how I have been feeling. Its really hard for me because I have always been around him since I was a baby. I just dont know.

Well I think its about that time for me to go to bed. Im stressed and feel like I could cry again so that means its bed time. Love you guys